The yoga pants have been washed and the textbooks have been purchased:
The anatomy worksheets have been printed and the journal to document this process has been selected:
And that writing prompt I was struggling with last month? It’s been finished for awhile now. I took full advantage of the 1000 word count limit (983 words to be exact) and found the words that explained what brought me to yoga:
As I practiced more and more during the Fall of 2011 and the Winter of 2012, I noticed huge shifts in myself – emotionally, physically and mentally… The emotional shift has been the hardest but most rewarding to go through in the past six months. When I am on my mat, I feel like I can do anything. I am courageous. I am strong. I am alive. I struggle with those things when I am off my mat. I used to second guess myself and my abilities on a regular basis, allowing self-doubt to always win out. But the more and more I practice, the more and more I find myself putting myself out there in other situations. Not being afraid to try something new. Not being ashamed of my history with anxiety and depression. Not being chained to the habits that once ruled my life. Yoga has brought me back to the person I once was: happy, healthy and excited to be alive.
But even with all that prep work, the concept of starting teacher training (TT) to be a fully certified yoga teacher by November still seems like a dream – until Tuesday. It was a day filled with great news on where my future is headed, but also just little moments with people that instilled the belief in me that I can do this. The sense of gratitude I was feeling could only be expressed by these words:
And around 8:00PM that night, I looked at Hans and said, “I’m going to be a yoga teacher”, finally believing it for the first time. His response: “Yes you are, and a damn good one at that.”
And that question of “why do I want to be a part of a broader yogic community?” The answer is simple: I want to be a part of something bigger than me – and that’s happening at Nishkama through the asana of a practice and the people that practice there. As I said in my writing assignment: Yoga’s about good people sharing their love for something that is pure and honest. We all need more of that in our lives and I am happy to help share it with the world.
So with my Manduka mat, my lululemon Wunder Unders and a solid confidence in myself, let’s see the places I go…