Trying to complete this half marathon training plan:
…is causing all sorts of this:
Anxiety-ridden, irrational Alicia sent that tweet on Sunday night after staring at the above Excel sheet for far too long. Coming off my recent forced downtime via double ear infection, I headed to the gym for some cardio on Thursday. I managed a vinyasa flow class the night before so figured I was ready for my usual elliptical/running workout. I wasn’t. I made it through the full 45 minutes but was ROCKED by the end of it. The last fifteen minutes on the track doing my version of intervals (power walking a lap, then running a lap) left me nauseous and very unlike that runner that used to blog here back in the summer.
A lot has happened since then. I wonder if I still have the legs, the lungs and the longing to run a half marathon. I look at my fellow Cleveland Marathon bloggers posts and get inspired. I remember that feeling: that runner’s high that I love. I remember how great I feel physically and mentally when I’m regularly running. Then it comes time to put my sneakers on, I panic and run to my yoga mat.
I’m comfortable on my mat. It’s a safe place. A place that has gotten me through a rough patch on several occasions. It’s helped me discover what is important to me, how I want to structure my every day life and inspired some crazy goals – many of which are manifesting themselves as I speak. One of those goals is completing yoga teacher training so I can be teaching by the end of 2012. I’m happy to share the realization that that goal is becoming reality as I’ll start “NYTT” aka Nishkama Yoga Teacher Training in March (noted on the schedule above).
That is what sparked the moment of anxiety on Sunday. As I plugged in my NYTT dates into my workout schedule, it all seemed to be like I was taking on too much. As it’s also on my goals sheet, I really want to break that 2:15 time in 13.1 miles, but my current level of cardio fitness is making me believe that if I don’t get on track NOW (or even yesterday) it’s not going to be a possibility. But can I work on furthering my path as a yogi while increasing my speed as a runner?
Even this morning I sit here debating: do I go to 9:30AM vinyasa flow or do I head to the track? You’re not a runner if you don’t run, but all I can think about is being in downward dog. So can I really be both a yogi and a runner? Feel free to talk some sense into me – Lord knows I’m not providing it to myself right now!